当我意识到这点我突然无助了起来，我把那本画册又翻了出来。可是我却不知道如何去处理它。此时这本画册像一个恐怖的妖魔在我面前狞笑着，而我就这样无可奈何的与它对视。

我像疯了一样把这本画册扯碎，可当我看到一地的碎片时，想到这是你留给我唯一的纪念时，我又倒在地上，哭了起来。

还是失去了这样的纪念。

就像E.说的，这个世界全都是假的。

全部都是。

我书写了这么久的文字，编造了那么多的剧情，我不知道最后我的结局将是什么。想到这我突然又再次恐惧了起来。

是不是我们所有的生命，也在一支无形的笔下被人书写着？我们的喜怒哀惧，我们的生老病死。

我们的一切。

……

我调整了一下情绪，继续走了上舞台。E.依旧让我唱。我用我已经沙哑疼痛的嗓子唱那首《die trying 》。

……

I\'m naked and violent

This is the first day of my life

Finish last at the staring line

I live through my friends who are barely there

And I love how you

You look out for me and I love you

I live through friends who are barely there

I\'m naked and violent

An emotional wreck

Yeah, Yeah

I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead

I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead

Yeah c\'mon

I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead

Is this the last day of my life

I try so hard to hold on tight

As I live through friends who are barely here

You think you\'re ready

Yeah, I think I\'m ready now

You think you\'re ready

Yeah, I think I\'m ready now

You think you\'re ready

Well, then c\'mon, c\'mon let\'s dance

Yeah, Yeah

I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead

I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead

Yeah c\'mon

I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead

You think you\'re ready

I think I\'m ready, yeah

You think you\'re ready C\'mon

You think you\'re ready

I think I\'m ready, yeah

You think you\'re ready

Well, then c\'mon, c\'mon let\'s dance

Yeah, Yeah

I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead

I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead

Yeah c\'mon

I\'m not about to stop until I\'m dead

You can\'t stop me yet

You can\'t stop me yet

……

我感觉自己像只野兽，我瞪着我发红的双眼怒视着下面，傲慢的唱着这首歌。

……

一切都无法回去。

一切都已结束。

那个我们走失的季节，早已被雨冲的不知去向。

请，不要，再去寻找。

……